May be..

Experience is a thing which comes with time. And no one can get it early..
as you grow old u see the changes..somethings u thought as important may not have the same value now..its true...
Death and fear of death is what s in the air surrounding me from a while now...my mental state has come to a state where..whatever
u hear u dont feel anything; a state of insensitiveness...Last three weeks has been a tough journey of reality which showed me the
uncensored face of life...i was not surprised...but ..things regarding death of my teacher now with my frnds fathers operation...
as he was like almost taken out
of the jaws of badLife..
now life strikes again...cool dude..u have a lot in ur basket ..i appreciate...but this was bit cruel...
its not an age where u get this disease....she still has a long way to go...i really understand how this is gona affect her life ...
i can just pray for her..and keep a positive mind Ha!!..
these night times where i sit with my phone to talk to her...where i dont have words to console her....what can i do..i dont know..
i really dont know...mom says one or the other person has some problem..why u take tension...i know shes only worried about her son..
and am worried about...my friends....these are the ppl whom i cannot exclude...when bad storm strikes them i can only be there for em.
thats what i've been doin..but now the issue with me is that i dont have words....i feel as if i am goin out of emotions...
i worry that i will become someone else.....but above all i understand the beauty of life which is about learning from these things...
i've been learning..but each time life surprises me with some or the other..now i dont know how to deal with this cruelty of life...but still
when i go to church..when i pray...and if God hear it...i know...it will pas...as i told her...
"Its just a bad time ...it will pass i believe"..hmmmmmmmm...
i believe..?.............

Numb

i may not have the courage to tell her to relax..when the life has shown its dirty face to you...nobody will have words to express. even i was numb over the phone..its not about losing your vision..its about when u've almost achieved ur vision and u findout thatyou are helpless infront of life..then?i did't had words to tell her to relax..how can i..?
thinking maynot help at this point of life i know....but still i dont have left or right turn to take ..only a straight highway which feels like never ending.i know i have to go through this..but what about..? !!
May God help..only he can do.....