empty spaces

I don’t like empty rooms, an evening to do nothing, cloudy sky and having dinner alone..
all these things makes me sick .. the worst thing in this world is to be alone..
just sit alone and browse through your mobile contact numbers ..
sometimes you will feel like just be alone is the best thing.. be away from all this crowd
all this noise , ego, quarrels .. but on other side u really want to be with someone ..
with that one person ..who will understand you .. who will tell you everything will be fine ..

you

when yesterday i saw your face in dim light ..that untied hair .. that small bindi on your forhead .. you looked like a painting for me..
everything about you has a fragrance to it..

Home

Coming back home has always been nice..it always made me into that little old
funny, ambitious ,overly romantic, insecure teenager again. I always loved that fact about coming back home.
U get to see those old roads where you walked with your friends. Old cricket ground where you always wanted to hit a sixer but you never did. the same old coffee shop where you and your friends used to sit and bring up this very unrealistic dream of becoming most wanted rich and successful businessmen in our town...but its kinda funny to see what life has brought us now.
I think universe is conspiring..and i am waiting for it ..:)

Ik tara

I wanted to write..I’ve been thinking and longing to do this from many months. I am not dead am very much alive and this thought made me write at last. after having a night drive in nice road and a dinner @ ramnagara when i comeback home i felt good. we had a can beer, cooled down the excitement for a bit . i saw some movies by the time i realized it was morning 7.Opened the door went out and saw the morning light with a satisfaction. Standing there on my balcony thoughts came pouring into mind.
I never got time to think on my own after coming to bangalore, this is a fast paced city and i was enjoying my time here with some long lost friends. Good night outs couple of beer some nice music, late evening movies, things were moving fast.. feel much younger now. when you have lot of time on your own you feel very old. and thoughts will make you crawl and feel like everything is bullshit. but now...now its better i don’t have the vicinity of open space ,clear sky and silence instead every day morning i hear autos roaring and all motor vehicles sounds...but i feel good.
Is this what i wanted..i don’t know but the moments that i have i really feel good about it. Today was complete off day..no phone calls no internet i laid down on my couch like a lazy kid. in background the song 'Ik tara' was going on..its a really nice song..hmm..i am laughing at myself now.
Things that really matter is to enjoy your silence..even when you know that silence is much deeper. I go back and forth in time but what i am left with is just some feel good factors and some bitter truths. but never mind ...life has its own way of handling things for you..i know when the next summer rain comes my fears will be washed away. Cool breeze was coming through the window now..i went and closed it and came back and sat on my bed ..Now i know things that really matter is to enjoy your silence..even when you know that silence is the only way..i hope to end this night somehow ..
"Kaise main chaloon
Dekh na sakoon
Anjaane raaste"
"Ik atara" song was still playing on my laptop...

Gulmohar

its an expectation..an expectation which sketches a girl who is waiting under a Gulmohar tree without knowing change in season.

A mid summer night dream..

It was in some book i guess..that each place has its own smell..
while you were traveling you can still feel the place..same way each
memory of yours has a fragrance of its own..

I was driving on a long highway when it rained yesterday..thunder striking..
heavy rain and wind...i had no option other than to drive ..
after reaching home i was watching the rain by standing outside my room..
it was cold wet..some wet memories came through my mind..
my cigarette was burning in my hand as if it wanted to die early..

When i woke up it was late ..started rushing to office as usual...
when i stepped out i saw it was a bright sunny morning..
you know the sun light makes your mind brighten..it brings in so much of energy..
and keeping my IPod on i started driving ..it feels so great to be alive...
because you feel alive …and at this point of time that’s what matters..

"To feel alive.."

Summer rain..and a cup of coffe..

I think i don’t like summer..I didn’t feel like I was living all these time.
And so sudden it rained today..It’s chill out. I went out for a ride in ring road during lunch time..
It was cool. This is the weather I wanted..If loved it..This rain brought back so many memories..
Old days, memories ..everything...i loved the feel of those..Now sitting in my place if am listening to
"She will be loved"..I want to keep my iPod on and drive a long long way..

"I don't mind spending everyday
Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile
Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved..."