I do wana move with wind..It feels so great..dont u know?

Sometimes back i've red it somewhr..about a story of an angel who
sacrificed heaven to marry a human female..he has to become one human
just to fullfill his love..
so my point for today wont be angels wont be love wont be sacrifice either.
i want to talk about the feeling ..which is kinda gud...the feeling which u get
when u travel on a long road..both sides of the road will have trees sky high..
u travel on your bike..u could feel the wind hittin on your face...u really like the whethr..u start remembering some old songs and start singing..all feels so gud..
and you really dont want to stop the bike...u really hope that it run till the end of the world if it exists..
how nice...thats what i feel as a feeling...sometimes in late evenings around 4.30 ,5 climate is really gud..we wont c usually tht time coz we'll b thr @ office..but its gud to go out tht time...u see the sun setin slowly...u do wana go thr ...i dono i have felt it int that way many times..
i love the wind ..i love to move along with it...i love to sing.."I just wana feel real love.."its amazing.....its amazing that u get to feel that....
even while writing these i could visualize the long road which is not ending at all..and the trees on both sides...lonely road me in the bike....its gud...
..and i really wana feeeeeeeeel real love...
coz i got so much love runnin troo my vein goin waste..:)
cheeeerZ!!!!!!!!!

Hate

i feel very bad about my anger.my way of behaving ..i dont like myself sometimes...most of the ppl cant accept the way i am i know but..even i cant help it...i dont know whthr i shld change it or notbut ...still things are very bad with me sometimes...i hate u arun ..not always ..sometimes.:)

my recent crap

continuous flow of thoughts into my brain ..s having some effect on my actions also..sometimes i wonder about fate(if it exists) if its not still we think of it; then thr is something like that.i blv ...you think about something only when you feel it..we can feel and sense each thing...many times we ignore it.but when you find this truth about sensing things around you.i guess u'll beamazed.but still we make mistakes while sensing.this usually happens because of misunderstanding senses..that we wanted to make something which cannot be made in that way.which is absolutely nonsense.so ultimately u end up with nonsense...so what is sense..again its relative...according to the direction you walking your right can be left ..left can be right..so whats real...there again you face a truth about relativity..still we want to fix the truth saying if this is right ..thts the only way it can be right..again nonsense....i think all these nonsense constitutes a learning which we never want to learn..why we all are so bullish..why we all are so....i dont know...but still...things will happen in specific format only..even though u wana know about it or u know about it....still you wait for something else.... and end up with nonsense...am cutting the crap..:)

Love to Hate

I know am misssing it.but as always am trying to avoid it..and failing again on my knees.I can never concider this as another let go.and i want to write these lines with heart.I still could't understand whats happening with me.is it a search for destiny or somethingthat makes us insecure in life or is it live the life as it is.? still confused at thisside of life.may b i will get a better answer next time.how do i controle this thoughts of mine which goes outer space.how do i controle my heartwhich looks for stars at night and if its not finding moon whom should i dial?even my mobileseems to be blank.i think i am returning from something or taking another direction in different gear.i hate this feeling i simply hate it with all means.i would rather throw everything out.i really want to scream out ..scream as loud as i can ..let the stars hear it..let it blast into peaces..let everything blast..as i hate this one thing in my life..i knwo am missing it.:)

Somethngs are scary

This is one thing which i never wanted to write about.
May be i was afraid..yes i am...
Death stops our living clock..it stops everythng around us..
when i got the message about vinods death..i was in a shock for an hr.
thr was a weight over my chest;i could see the moments i spent with him,
those days in hostel we all had fun;
that guy;he just started living with very nice job;
i've never scn his wife and kid;but i can see their pain ;
these are somethings in life about which we never have answers.
Once i wrote in my mail, we all live to die;that was for fun;
but now i am thinkin about the fact which is hiding behind those words.
i know i wont get a chance to meet vinod again;
but it is very hard ti blv that hes not alive;
death destroys ur existance in a sec;
after that ur just a memory...
may be as or grandparents say..
they'll become a star up above the sky.and laugh at us..
whos nothng but waitin for the moment of surrender.
pray for his soul;

OK SO THATS HOW THINGS WORK...!!!!

OK SO THATS HOW THINGS WORK...!!!!
something which happened recently with my friend made me think out of the box....
me went out of myself and tried to see things from a different dimension..
and letme clarify tis is about "naming the relationships"..
and i made my own theory which states as long as u try to name ur relation or define it ,
it'll get complex and start creating problems in your life...
one day sophie told me that relationships should be simple,
wht do u xpect from ur pet dog..?its very simple,relationship with a small kid..its innocent its just simple,
that simplicity is what we lack and its what creating problems in life..
dont worry am still framing my own theorm for relationships,learning troo my own xperiences also from others,
..its going strong...
and for the first time i am feeling something like tht,something simple,innocent and ..
without any expectations from life or other person..and blv me its so gud...
u shift ur gears in life but if u could see things in this directions things are gona workout like that..
as sophie says..thk u sophie..for everythin..:)
now u better stop teasin me...u better..

This afternoon

I think i am tiered,body is not reacting to my thoughts
Brain is feeling some strange stress or laziness::)
looking ahesd i've work to finish..not getting a mood to sit
Thought music may help ,it could't...
but am at ease jst floating....
let it finish then i'll recharge myself
i shld..

Feels so fresh today....yesterday was so hectic...went home and slept like a pig...
yes from today am starting the practice for being alone ..!!!sounds funny ahhh??
yes am doing that woke up around 11...first thing stuck me was the book..Its Not about the bike by lance amstrog...God that guy got enogh to strike against cancer it was gud; then started thinking about cancer ,pain nd all..suddenly i felt like shit ..i know tht will come according to me everything is shit ..god help me hihihi..
nothing more came to office alone had lunch alone...things u shld spend some time alone with u ,u and only u....its kind of gud...u can feel the changes thats happening within u....but onething am confused is whr am going ..i seriously dont have controle over my things..even i dont want to have but it scares me...ne ways...cheers again to me me and only me..:))))

Why do people meet?

Just went to church I was running from house to reach there..now I could see her shoes outside I waited to enter the church door .when I got inside saw her sitting inside church all alone lookin @ mother mary’s statue just went to her she looked back I smiled and said “good morning” then I went to my knees and prayed, was praying for all of my friends family then I got up,she said” ll go?” I did’t hv anything to say coz inside I did’t want to leav just wanted to sit there the whole day,at the stairs simply talking abt those usual topics that we had. Which is not going to happen anymore.
Why do people meet?…I was telling her yesterday at last we all end up only with your life
And she was telling I just wanted to be travelers just roam here nd there . hmmm.. I always amazed on that craziness ,that openness.
We slowly walked outside of church and sat on the stairs again she started imitating me the way I play with my hair,the jackfruit tree next..all the nice time we had was going through my eyes like a movie..i felt like am letting leave something very close to me… may be yes may be no..
Then I said I’ll miss you yaar…she replied I’ll miss you too ..
I know I’ll miss many things…
But still now am standing at the church gate waving hand to her she was looking back from rick but I did’t have anything to say because inside I did’t want to leave just wanted to sit there the whole day,at the stairs simply talking abt those usual topics that we had. Which is not going to happen anymore.

my-dear friend... sorry for u

I felt so bad today
cos one of my very close friend who was workin here for around 3 yrs has resignd..
and something tht shld not hppn hppndon his last day..
this gets me how dirty te life is..
all society has become self oriented,
my problems,my egos,my my my..thts it nothing beyond tht........
once bijesh told me tht our life has become money centric...
it is...it is a kind of celf centric equipment th we use to fullfilll our things..
we need it for our stuffs..whn it comes to others matters money is too hard for us...
no matter how much u think nd hate it it is..
truth is to hell with this self centric world wht else can i do...
llok out for ur own benifits thts te only thing u can do...
if u care for smallll things in life ur goin to wastebasket....
coz tht wont fetch u money or revenge...
its high time for me to concentrate on tht..

guys

guys pls do comment on my blog...
let it b a comon place whr we can ...come together......

wht all things

my share of things in life...

Hello my friend, we meet again
It's been awhile, where should we begin?Feels like forever
Within my heart are memoriesOf perfect love that you gave to me
Oh, I remember
When you are with me, I'm freeI'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
We've seen our share of ups and downs
Oh how quickly life can turn aroundIn an instant
It feels so good to reuniteWithin yourself and within your mind
Let's find peace thereWhen you are with me, I'm freeI'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyes
My sacrifice
I just want to say hello againI just want to say hello again
When you are with me I'm freeI'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyes
Cause when you are with me I am freeI'm careless, I believe
Above all the others we'll flyThis brings tears to my eyesMy sacrifice, My sacrifice
I just want to say hello againI just want to say hello againMy sacrifice.