Wednesday, October 22, 2008

An encounter with sunshine



This top birth in train has always made me lazy. I wanted to takeout my book from bag and read it; but I am too lazy to open my eyes. I was thinking of yesterday night how we got the train and all those fun moments.
Felt like smiling. I could hear the trains sound it sunny outside I guess we have reached some where near to Cochin.
I decided to get up.slowly I got up and sat near to the window.
“Gods own country”
I have never given importance to the line. My eyes started wandering outside the window the train is not moving that faster.
so much greenery .coconut trees which stands tall as if they rule the earth, but it had its own beauty, small backwaters. The water looked so clear and it was decorated with the fallen sunlight.

Then came the most beautiful view “Bharatha puzha” we can translate it as bharatha river…I am not exactly sure about the name of the river but this is what we call it in kerala.
This is the river which stood as inspiration for many great movies, novels and poems. This place reminded me of many moments for some great movies. This river has the essence of kerala.now it looks tired and lean but it still had the beauty which is unquestionable.

Next I saw kerala kalamandalam which is actually the hub of cultural art forms like kathakali and many other art forms.this place also holds a great portion in keralas cultural history.

After seeing all these I actually knew how much I missed my land. We youngsters are exposed to western literature, music n all. But I know how deep rooted is our literature and writers here are so amazing.
we had poets, writers and movie directors many great creative persons I have not scene many other states in India which has so rich in literature. But I don’t know when was the last time I touched a Malayalam novel or any writing…I felt bad. This is the culture that each malayalee is missing. Its so rich that we cannot let it go.

Suddenly one feeble voice woke me up from thoughts.
“I cannot stand there its door no I will fall”
That was a voice of an elderly women but it was in that sweet palakkat accent which I always liked. I turned my face looked back.
I saw an old female carrying a lot of books in her hand she was finding difficulty in holding the book. Some how she sat on the seat next to my firend.he was searching for some book in that.
I also went and sat near to them just went through the list of books didn’t find anything interesting. But I was really wondering and kind of angry
If she has any son/daughter or any relative why they are leving her for this work .i could not take the sight of her holding so many books.
She has to hold all these heavy book and walk through the train. I felt so bad she was more than my mothers age I really wanted to take a book from that .it gives her cash also it will reduce the weight that shes is holding on to.i decided to help.
Then I saw this book of MT vasudevan nair hes one of those writers whos writing will amaze you .such a blessed wirter he is ..I took that book saw the cover, a boy standing in a barren land ..but a stream of water is flowing up to the hill. it was good it had that international standard to it. I bought it.

so I am fulfilling my desire to read a Malayalam book after so long it should be good.
She got up again took those heavy books in her hand with so much difficulty and walked slowly to next compartment.
Cursing her relatives and childrens I again sat near to the window. Fresh air hit on my face which had a poetic fragrance to it. I felt like letters are poring in as wind. I felt like literature is strongly integrated to malayales air and water. And I guess I missed it for some time. May be it’s a journey back to the roots.
And my mind got busy in wandering thoughts.

Wind ..slow wind..its like a poem ..sometimes it rhymes .when I sit near to the window and look outside it grows in my mind.
Gently it touches my face..it moves my hair but still I wait for it to come again..
to rhyme
Again I saw those coconut trees which stood proudly as if they were ruling the place.

Friday, October 03, 2008

I have a mind which tells me..how this late evening wind on a long road comforts him.


Loneliness is two sided sword which is hanging above your head.
How can a human being survive on earth without sharing his thoughts?
This was an unanswered question in my mind.
Bike was on top gear.
Now sun has gone down slowly the shadows of night has come.
I couldn’t stop my bike. I kept holding on to the accelerator as if I don’t want to leave..
Two sides of road were fully lighted for dasara all lighted up but not my mind.
I took a right to ring road..
long road had spread its arms wide open for me..i felt so comforted.
And first time when I saw the green signal I prayed it to shift to red so that I can spend some more time on road.
I did’t want to go back to room,not infront of that TV.
I need to survive alone..just wondered that everyone will have to go through this face one or the other time in their life?.
And whats the solution to it?
I don’t find any..my mobile contact list showed me so many names who are not available for the time being..
My thoughts wandered around again.

Bikes engine was making noice I guess it also wanted some rest.
But I had to end my ride .i had to turn the bike keys to left so that the engine stops.
I had to stop everything..i know times telling me to accept the fact..
fact of being alone.
Its not about missing someone..its about missing everyone.

this place where i live used to be so brighted up by so many people;now the time has played a dirty game where he forgot me .

he left me alone ,i am the only card left on the table and all the gamblers hv gone home.

i opened my rooms lock went inside switched on the lights.
And this restless mind once again looked at the TV remote which is resting there on that lazy bed….