An ambitious love letter..

People are so strange..What do they think..?What do they believe..?
I have no idea. Do you think that you understand someone perfectly? If so then you are mistaken my friend.
What’s it that we need to understand? Is there a particular thought which everyone process? Black magic stuff.
I wander around to find this meaning again..People I meet, things I share all becomes a burden sometimes later.
Who is it that you can rely on anytime..?..Is there a soul mate (this isn’t about a soul mate .I know I may sound
Like Richard back.)..No that’s not the worry..Or is there any need to get worried about it?

Everyone tend to pour their insecurities, their worries on to someone whom they trust..That’s what all humans do.
some don’t share it because they are too much worried about the world. Some do that because they want to get rid of it.
But you should not share your insecurities or worries to anyone..That is yours..Only you are the master of it..And
Only you can command it. When you forget that you are the master then is the real worry! You are upset..you don’t get
sleep at night,u shiver,you cry,you make yourself shit!!..And by the time you realize and try to come back to life.
It’s so late dude!!..

This is't about coming back to life because I know I have lost it..I am no more in search of light at end of the tunnel.
the one who made me believe, the one who made me feel hmm!!...It killed the thirst of mine with a shining
Metal sword. It pierced my thought for a snow white dream!!..I was lyin on the floor without head.
And you won the battle.
For what is it?..And for what I am fighting for now?..To understand the people around..Like I care about it.
I get up in the morning thinking how to end it...and as always..To satisfy myself..And to make me believe that I am
Alive I say this again and again to myself
"I live for the day
I live like a fire fly
I cry for light and die in the night
It’s the heat from the light which I long for , And die with
And I live for the day
I live like fire fly.
With a dream to touch the light..But I perish!!"

The river and the thirst..it’s all fake!!

Oh!! I reached home..slowly i parked the bike inside and started climbing the stairs..
what should i expect when i open my room..?..
i opened the lock went inside..switched on the lights.
Bright..
its all bright now.
what else you want now?..you had your dinner..u finished a day with gud ,bad nd ugly experiences..
you settled things..now what else you want?..let me see i switched on the TV..now nice....
i can watch some movies..or may be some music channels..no no!! i can read something..
no way man. you don’t wana do this..what is that you want to see now?..feel..
oh you don’t wana look at your mobile now..shit man you can call any friend..?..nope
that’s not the thing that you wana do..i went to the terrace..a calm night moon is also shining..
i looked above..smiling..i felt happy..why?..because the moon was shining ..no way!!..
may be you don’t wana miss a missing feel..what’s that you miss?..nothing..i smiled at myself..
my biggest worry is why is that i don’t have that missing feeling..why..?
is there something wrong with you?
may be..may not be..but..in case if tomorrow comes...i have to travel again..to settle things..
to reduce the baggage of yesterday..i need to work more..i need to pretend more..
yes..let me see..
let me just wait for tomorrow..
If it comes..
PS : fc you for making me like this..a walking thought which carries yesterdays only.