Monday, August 24, 2009

Summer rain..

"A cloudy Sunday..i was not in a mood to get ready but still i wanted to go to church..once it starts raining in Pune
Only God can save us..Joe was ready to come so i got ready. From my system Bono was singing

"On rainy days, swimming in the sound
On rainy days, we'd go swimming out
You're in my mind all of the time
I know that's not enough
If the sky can crack, there must be some way back
For love and only love
Electrical Storm ".....


it actually got into the mood of cloudy sky,lazy mind.
We started riding the bike..highways are too risky but i liked it..i was completely wet.
Rain drops are falling on me ..but i imagined it as cleansing..Cleansing my mind.
There is always a weight..it sits right there at the centre...how to get ride of that dont know..and again i enjoyed the rain.
There was an independent church on highway..standing alone. We stopped the bike and ran into the church..
with my wet hands i lighted the candle and i prayed..long conversation with God..asking why things go wrong with me..telling him to do something for me..shit man i do this every time. then i turned back..while driving back to hostel i had a feeling ....no a hope that things will be fine for me..i was wet i was swimming in my hope.."

some annoying noise from outside the Bus woke me up from my dream..i looked at my watch it was 2 AM..i was smiling at myself.
why did i think about something which has happened 4 years back? a rainy Sunday ..a ride to church..may be..that’s
what i did always..but i did pray for them..she never knew about this..how many candles I have lighted..
candle light is not enough to clear the darkness sometimes..it need much bigger miracle to clear it..
no cleanse it..cleansing my mind..Days are getting tougher i hide my helplessness in a smile.
May be candle light is not enough to clear the darkness..
Again i started my conversation with God!!..hey your are the only one i can speak my mind now..smile at me Boss!!..

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